hot tamale, batman!

So it is the end of the day  and my first thought when I sat down to write was something like, “Jeez Louise, I did not get anything done today!”

Then I remembered my new thing that I’m doing. I would like to share with you my new thing–are you ready? My new thing is: at the end of the day, I am writing down what I actually did accomplish. I am doing this because otherwise I do things like think, “I did not get anything done today!” and then that feels really defeating. I’m approaching it all backwards (hopefully not “ass backwards”) and find that it gets much easier to do that than to think about what I had intended to do today and did not get done. Also, it is a lovely opportunity to confront my Story that I am valuable if I “do” things rather than embracing a story that I have value simply by “who I be.”

Things that I intended to do today that did not quite happen:

* make videos for e-course

* finish PDFs for e-course

* pick up the house

* make time for process work/my personal coaching tools

I was pretty attached to getting those things done. What actually happened?

* returned something to a store that is located a half-hour away (man, that needed to happen; I was getting sick of looking at it sitting next to the door).

* played “Buzzer” by Dar Williams over and over in the car and mulled over what I want to do with it to turn it into a video (we’ll call this a creative brainstorming meeting among the CEO/CFO/VIP/boss lady of Your Courageous Life–me–and the Creative Director–also me).

* answered a whole lotta emails.

* wrote design ideas for my next tattoo on my arm with a Micron pen to test things out.

* indulged in some diversions by Facebook when my mere mention of cowboy boots prompted some interesting comments.

* navigated my way through a maze of options for recording my interview with the Cafe Gratitude peeps on Thursday and finally found something that should work in terms of price, functionality, and quality. So hopefully now I’m set for that interview, though it did kill an hour at the store (would you believe I went to the store without the camera and then had to run back home and get it to make sure I was buying compatible cards, etc.? Would you believe it? Could you?).

* had sessions with two clients.

I have some time before Andy gets home and we indulge in a date night, some Biggest Loser fun, and then working some of our relationship tools (this is far more fun than it sounds).

If you really knew me, you’d know that I would like to take one important thing off of the list of things I had intended to do today and switch them over to the “done” side of things, and if you really, really knew me, you’d know that the thing I have the most resistance towards doing is making space for the process work. Ugh (says Resistance). Getting clear with myself? Taking time to acknowledge and move through anger, sadness? Blecch (says Resistance)! Think of what I’m grateful for? Get in integrity with me? Acknowledge myself for the things I’m doing well? Fuggedaboutit (my Resistance also tries out thug accents).

Which means that you know what I’m going to get off of the computer and do right now–even though my office needs a pickup and the first thing I want to do is tell myself that I should do that first, or clean the rest of the house while the vacuum is out, or…

Yeah. I’m going to dive straight into the place where I have the most Resistance. Please don’t believe it’s “easy.” I just know I’m going to do it.

Is there anything you’ve been Resisting lately that you’d like to just own up to (perhaps in the comments?) and then get off of the information super highway and just dive right in?