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People decide that they’ll start some sort of online business. They pull together a marketing plan.
A year later, they’re disappointed. They’ve had a proportionate amount of success to the consistency of their marketing plan–which is to say that the people who super-hustled are seeing moderate success, and they’re going, “For serious? I hustled that hard and I didn’t knock it out of the park?”
And the other thing they’re disappointed about? That they’re not internet famous.
Seriously. Let’s all just cop to this. Secretly, deep down, you’d basically kinda like to be internet famous. You’re not lame or abnormal for seeing the Marie Forleos of the world and thinking, “I want that.” Why aren’t you lame? Because damn, it looks cool.
You wish that you had the hair.
You wish that you had the following.
You wish that your posts went viral.
You wish that you had the connections.
You wish that you had the business.
You wish–c’mon, now!–that your mug was on Instagram next to Tony Robbins, Oprah, and every single Hay House author who might have landed a best-seller.
The Fate of Famous
I first started blogging more than a decade ago. I became a life coach in 2006. I used to think that becoming internet famous was an “if you really work hard” kind of thing.
Now, I think it’s an “if it’s meant to be” kind of thing.
As in, it’s fate. You’re either fated to be it, or you’re not. People try to sell ways to hack the system, and without a doubt the people who the masses wish to emulate understand them.
But really, the fork in the road between famous and “does good work but not famous” is something left up to the stars. It happens for some. It doesn’t, for others.
By the way? People do not like hearing this.
Nonetheless, here it is: I know a lot of great people who do great work–myself included, if I may be so bold. We’re not famous. We are just great people doing our great work.
And here’s the thing about that: it’s all totally fine.
Why Do You Need It?
People think life coaches help you get what you want. That’s only partially true. I, personally, seek to understand and help my clients understand why they want what they want, in the first place. I ask the tough questions, like, “Why do you feel you need it? What are you going to ‘get’ from that? Who will you be, if it happens?”
Questions like that help people get past the bullshit, and to the real shit.
People will tell you all kinds of things about why they feel they need to be internet famous. They want to be of service, they want women to live authentic lives, they have a message that’s important to bring to the world, etc., etc.
I hold the hypothesis that most people want to be internet famous because they want to fill some kind of emotional need.
And since we’re being real, here, I’ll go ahead and drop a little truth bomb right in the middle of this: I used to want to be internet famous. I was completely unaware of this fact. It was expressing itself more as a feeling in my body than a conscious thought. My work could get recognition, but it was never enough because it wasn’t hordes of people. It wasn’t all of the attention and social media shares that I knew the bigger names were getting. I hated that I was “just another life coach.”
Then, one day, it occurred to me that I was equating attention with validation, and internet famous was the ultimate validation. I perked up, kinda went, “Whoa. I didn’t know that about myself.” Then I questioned why I wanted (secretly, by the way) to be internet famous.
What I discovered was that I wanted to be wanted. In my head, hordes of people loving my work would equal feeling like I was truly wanted on this earth, truly needed.
I cried, the day that I discovered this pocket of myself that thought external validation would have her feeling wanted, needed, or having a right to exist.
So what do you do if you recognize yourself in these words? Here’s what I did.
I began cutting away anything that I was doing to try to build my platform that felt like striving.
I hunkered down.
I didn’t create anything for awhile.
I kept revisiting the truth that I’d stumbled upon: I just want to be wanted. I just want to be wanted. I just want to be wanted.
When you realize that there’s a deep pattern at work, a great first step is to get quiet with it. Observe it.
If you don’t work on the real, actual issue, it’ll just replicate itself in different ways in your life, over and over. I understood now, very clearly, that no number of followers was ever going to fill the hole of wanting to be wanted.
With time, with work, and with tools, I stopped needing to be wanted.
I’d still love to have Marie Forleo’s hair (who wouldn’t?), and sometimes when I’m having a crappy couple of weeks, I’ll find myself wistfully imagining how great it would be to have the hordes of people who can’t wait to read, use, buy, or otherwise engage with what I offer, without me even trying, because I was so internet famous.
But most of the time?
It was not fun to spend those years of my life, secretly wanting to be internet famous.
I’m a fan of fun; of pleasure that isn’t even slightly reigned in. I’m a fan of wholeheartedly wanting myself, always and without hesitation.
It’s what I choose, consciously. It feels good.
And if you feel ready to look at why you want to be internet famous and what that’s really about, you can feel good, too.
We often wonder how to choose joy , especially when we’re going through difficult times. When I’m having a tough time, choosing joy is hard for me, too–by no means am I suggesting that this is simple or easy to do.
Nonetheless, I’m saying…it’s what we’ve got to do. When it’s difficult to feel connected to the goodness of life, we’ve got to make a choice to look for the joy, wherever we can find it.
This video is short and sweet, and gets straight to the point: joy is your birthright, but you’ve got to choose it in the sense that you keep actively looking for it.
Consider some possibilities for how you might transcend difficult circumstances through choosing joy, consciously deciding that even if things are hard, you’re both willing to look at what’s difficult as well as decide to see what might be possible.
A quick note that I am compelled to add when talking about topics such as these: I would never suggest that in choosing joy, you try to ignore or bypass very real suffering or oppression. This isn’t reciting positive affirmations. This is about really deciding that you’re going to look for the good, wherever you can, because it lifts up your life.
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I kept hearing them: stories of betrayal.
Sometimes, it was something a friend of mine was going through, and other times it was hearing what happened to so-and-so’s friend, so-and-so. But every time, it was the same thing:
As someone started to step into more personal power, more success, more light, a close friend–the person they would least have expected it from–would betray them.
Suddenly breaking off all contact.
Sending an email that’s damning.
Being online, there’s a certain toughness that you develop when these things happen amongst anonymous internet strangers. When anonymous internet strangers read one blog post and write a damning email, or leave a message in the comments that something is “stupid,” these aren’t pleasant experiences, but everyone who steps into online visibility understands that they will inevitably happen.
To have someone close to you do this right after you’ve finally stepped into your light, is a different terrain altogether.
The Betrayal of the Light
When we start to step into our light, whether it’s a limelight of visible success or the light of living from a place of more contentment/joy/love/power, the people around us will have a response.
For some, the response is one of sheer delight: You did it! I’m so happy to see you so happy! You’re the proof that it can be done! Good for you–when can we celebrate?
For others, the response is very, very different.
“The betrayal of the light” is what I call the phenomenon of people shutting down or acting out, in response to seeing someone else’s light emerging.
It looks like…your online business takes off, and suddenly a friend emails to say that you’re too full of yourself. Or you start to feel happy and joyful in your life, and a family member is noticeably avoiding you. Or you knock it out of the park with a launch, and find out that your mastermind group (who hasn’t knocked it out of the park with their launches, yet) is gossiping about you behind your back.
Why Does It Happen?
If you’ve been on the receiving end of this kind of betrayal, you know that it’s painful. It can leave you doubting and questioning yourself, worrying that the person sees something awful in you that you don’t even realize you’re projecting.
People who betray the light–people who shut down, criticize, or avoid in response to your success–are suffering. It’s hard to sit with feelings of, “I worked hard, too, so why am I not in the light?” or “Every time I’m around her joy, I feel so aware of what a mess my own life is.”
People who betray the light are assuming that there are only a few slices of goodness in the world, and they’re struggling with feelings of scarcity–you got your slice, so where’s mine? What if none is left?
People who betray the light are…actually betraying themselves. Responding to someone else’s good fortune by criticizing, writing the person off, shit-talking, or violating integrity are all betrayals of the self. Those actions don’t bring the person any closer to actually stepping into their own life’s version of a good fortune.
What if They’re Right?
There’s a tendency in self-help for people to invoke the clause of, “If they don’t support you, they shouldn’t be in your life!”
Reality is more nuanced than that. Most of us feel defensive when we hear criticism. It’s healthy to ask ourselves: What if this criticism is valid, and I’m too defensive to hear it?
It’s very adult to be willing to look at someone’s criticism and turn it over, without running away.
But here’s where we need a dose of discernment: there’s criticism intended to effect change for good and see a broader picture, and there’s criticism intended to level you and break you down.
The criticism that it’s helpful to listen to is the kind where someone is making it clear that their intentions are to change something for good and see a broader picture. People who are critical of institutionalized racism as part of the Black Lives Matter movement, for instance, are doing that.
Criticism that only aims to break someone down by assaulting their character, or that aims to break someone down through backend social maneuvering (shit-talking, gossip, passive-aggressiveness) is parasitic.
A parasite dissolves its host. Parasitic energy dissolves everything in its path, and is not working for good.
Take-down blog posts? Parasitic.
Passive-aggressively ignoring someone in order to communicate “I’m mad at you”? Parasitic.
Dropping a bomb of rage and expletives on your head? Parasitic.
Sending you a nasty email? Parasitic.
If you’re trying to figure out whether someone has legitimate concerns that they’re trying to bring to your attention, versus when someone is on a take-down mission because they’re feeling wildly insecure, the path they choose for delivering their message is your foremost clue.
Deciding to bow down in the face of parasitic criticism is you, betraying your own light. Betraying your own light will not save someone else from their own pain. It will not fix the relationship. It will only ever spiral into more parasitic energy.
How You Cope
So if you’re experiencing the betrayal of the light–you’re stepping into something bigger and the people around you are triggered as all get-out–how do you cope?
How you cope is this: you cry, because it hurts. You feel the feelings.
And then, you call on the light that you just stepped into.
You call on the light of…your mentors. Your most loyal fans. The friends who have been celebrating you the entire time and who knew you when you were just starting out.
You call on the light of the joy that you’ve found. You ask yourself, “What was my path to this joy? How can I recreate more of it? Bring in more of of it?”
Leave Doors Open
There’s one more step that’s helpful, that is the truest expression of what it means to live in light and walk your talk.
The step is this: leave doors open.
Again, the common self-help advice is to just ditch anyone who isn’t supporting your current cause.
Instead, remember that people do painful things when they are in pain. Instead of burning a bridge, leave the door open to the idea that at some point, they might decide that what they’re doing doesn’t feel good to them, or to you, and that they want to change.
This isn’t the call to put up with poor behavior. Go ahead and create a healthy distance from dysfunction. This is just the simple acknowledgement that you’re human, I’m human, they’re human.
The mistakes I’ve made one year become my lessons to apologize and make amends for, in the next. Same goes for you.
It’s also an expression of love to maintain a personal philosophy that people are capable of change, and to love yourself enough to take a step away from them if their behavior is harmful.